June 23, 2009 [A Rambling Of Thoughts]

There’s something oddly empowering about reading a complete strangers blog. I know that sounds slightly creeperish, but hear me out. I stumbled across a blog by a person who’s name I don’t even know. It was a complete accident and I was going to click away when the title of one of his entries caught my eye, so like a good bookworm, I continued to read. What the blog was about or said is irrelevant to the blog that you are currently reading. What IS relevant is that I stumbled across something written by someone who lives states, countries, maybe even continents away and they are going through some of the same things I am. This person has similar thoughts, ideas, feelings. He leads a completely different life, in a completely different place than I do and yet...we’ve had common life experiences.

I find this thought oddly comforting. Sure I know that people in general tend to share certain life experiences but there’s a difference in knowing something and then witnessing it first had, well reading it anyway.

I’ve come to realize that the human race in general strive towards a common goal: to mean something. Humans want to mean something. To anyone and for anything. We all want to be wanted and loved. We want to be cared about and to be showed that we are cared about. We want to feel like our lives have had some kind of impact, any kind of impact; on anyone or anything. We want people to notice when we leave, we want them to be saddened by our loss. We want to know that someone will miss us when we’re gone. The human race doesn’t want to be alone. We have a common fear, dying, being alone and forgotten. Unloved and uncared for. Even the most cold hearted person on the planet wants SOMEONE to love them. So, we do whatever it takes to gain approval from other humans. We put on masks and parade around like peacocks hoping someone will notice us. Whatever it takes to be remembered. Good or bad.


just a rambling of thoughts really, like anything else i write.